I am begging whoever is “in charge” of this universe. I am on my hands and knees pleading with you to just make it STOP. MAKE these thoughts stop. This loneliness I feel every night. This isolation, this chronic pain condition i’ve been stricken with. I am sorry but I feel like throwing the towel in once and for all. I am of no use to anyone. I can’t even take care of myself. So, why let me live? But, let others suffer horrendously until their demise eventually meets them. Or, they die in a horrible accident or natural disaster or MURDER. But, yet these lousy bags of bones still keep on moving. This heart still beats. This soul still cares despite it’s constant rejection and sadness. Can’t we make an exception for the rule, just for me? I feel like i’ve done enough already. I just want it to stop.