Whew. Okay, So I did a lot of contemplating today and I went into those dark places I hide from in my head all the time. I am probably not going to elaborate just yet because I am still pretty overwhelmed and kind of shaky. It was very very painful and still kind of hurts. But I was able to go there. I am still a little shaken up. I decided to tell one of my friends about my PTSD and it was uncanny because she has it too. That is intense that she was the one I chose to tell. But it felt good. I said, it’s pure hell isn’t it? She said it always has been.