Author: Frantic Living

I am at a stand still in my life right now. I was a DJ, an Improv Comedian, a researcher, and a writer. Now, I just watch the days pass me with contempt in my heart for no reason. I do find most people amusing though. I love stories. I am working on compiling a collection of my own for what I one day hope to be an interesting memoir. I've led quite a different life than anyone else I have ever known. I am a horse of a different color. If that's not the most cliche saying, ever. Oh, and my Blog name comes from a character in a John Waters movie named "Desperate Living" She's the evil queen of this deliriously illuminated backwards shanty town called "Mortville". The town exists for perverts, criminals, homosexuals, and the like. It's a great movie! I am forever obsessed with John Waters. #gr_updates_widget{ border-radius: 5px; background-color:#fff; border:solid #683205 10px; -webkit-box-shadow: 0px 0px 4px 1px #595959, inset 0px 0px 0px 1px #7D730B; -moz-box-shadow: 0px 0px 4px 1px #595959, inset 0px 0px 0px 1px #7D730B; box-shadow: 0px 0px 4px 1px #595959, inset 0px 0px 0px 1px #7D730B; padding:15px 0 35px 15px; width:250px; height:330px; } #gr_footer{ margin-bottom:10px; } #gr_updates_widget p{ padding:0px; margin:0; font-size:14px; } #gr_footer img{ width:100px; float:left; } #gr_updates_widget img{ border-style:none; } https://www.goodreads.com/widgets/user_update_widget?height=400&num_updates=3&user=23084646&width=250 Oh, and all work is Copyrighted by Sara Ribar 2013-

Hey Guys! Yes, Emotional ADDICTION is in YOU

So in order to understand the biological hormonal brain research I have been dabbling a little in. I would just like some input if you would be so kind to help shed some more insight on this fascinating subject. Emotional ADDICTION. Now, it was strange because my therapist has been describing to me in bits […]

Therefore By the Grace of God Go I…

So, I have no idea who is even still reading or following my blog at this point. Apparently I had not updated in here since the end of November. There is just cause for my long delay of absence, I promise. So, I am not sure if I had updated in here that I almost […]

I apologize.

You may notice the previous post missing words. My computer died on me so I don’t know how to edit well on my ipad. Just fill in the blanks.

Sigh.

I haven’t been writing much mostly because I don’t really have anything to say anymore. My social anxiety has gotten so bad that I started sweating on the elevator because it was too full. I never wanted to become this? I feel stuck and afraid. I never knew PTSD would eat away at my life […]

Random Shallow entry..

There’s this Elder beerman outlet store by where I live and I got a 140 dollar coat 54 dollar sweater 20 dollar bra and 80 dollar pair of pants all for 49 dollars. That coat is so awesome. I must show it off.

I take two steps forward and two steps back…

Okay, I admit, lately I have been indulging in some unsavory behavior. I don’t know why??? Coping mechanism I never learned to deal with properly? I tell my therapist what I do. It’s just, how am I supposed to fix my damn self? By words and worksheets and workbooks? It doesn’t work. She said I […]

So much still to process so overwhelming and scary..

God damn I have only been through 3 hours of this CPT therapy and its ripping me to shreds. I mean first thoughts; anger, always. Second thoughts confusion confusion and more confusion. The thing is I have not been “myself” in probably over 15 years. Now I have to face it? I don’t want to […]

Hm.

Sometimes, I enjoy routine. Mostly when it comes to appointments. I have been seeing my therapist at 2:00 pm every time, but tomorrow it is at NOON. That bothers me, shouldn’t they be eating lunch or something? Not listening to my pathetic childhood trauma? I just don’t know. But, I get my ADD medication tomorrow […]

I Know this Is A .GOV website, but it deals with a therapy for PTSD

Which, I might add I am a part of it. She said with a little tweaking though, whatever that means. So, yeah read about it. It’s a pretty intense approach but helps you get stronger. http://www.ptsd.va.gov/public/pages/cognitive_processing_therapy.asp

“It’s Always Something” – Gilda Radner

So, oh man. How do I even begin this one? Okay, I would say about Six months ago, I started feeling chest pains. Of course, on the left side of the chest. At first, I just thought it was a panic attack. Which, you know can mimic heart attacks. But, see, panic attacks don’t last […]